m y // l i t t l e // s e c r e t s ......

Friday, July 30

i luv china!! i luv china ..

i REALLY LOVE China

i jus dun like china's history

IT IS DRIVING ME NUTS

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at 9:03 PM
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Thursday, July 29

listening to : Troy soundtrack

i cant bring myself to talk to her..

i dunno how?

i dunno why?

but im not gonna do anithing about it

aniwae.. im not angry with her or wat

just the communication aint there animore

oh watever..

i shld go to slp

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at 4:00 PM
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Wednesday, July 28

here's a list of things im gonna get after mission pledge

* NLB Version Bible
* Hillsongs - Shout to the Lord 1 & 2
* MLTR - 19 Love Ballads
* Piano Songs - Various Artiste

not alot . haha

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at 10:47 PM
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Self-sacrifice is the defining pinnacle of friendship. Jesus said," Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends"(John 15:13) . We're not often called upon to sacrifice our lives for our friends, but the principle of sacrifice remains true today. If you have friends you know would brace a burning car to pull you to safety or face down an angry mob that was after you blood, you can count yourself blessed indeed. But sacrifice is so much more than being willing to die for a friend. It's being willing to diewith your friend when the crowd condemns or ridicules your ideas. It's accomodating your craving for Chinese when she's secretly dying for pizza. It's driving across town three times a day to let you dog out so you can have a romantice weekend away. It's giving you the best seat at the movies, the bigger piece of French silk pie, and taking vacation to accompany you to the doctor for that scary test. Sometimes we might not even be aware of the loving sacrifices a friend is making on our behald. That's what was so awesom about Jesus' sacrifice: He gave His life to save those who didn't know Him or who rejected Him as their friend. Sacrifice for a friend is alwayz worth it, even if it's never acknowledged, appreciated, or known. No sacrifice is ever unnoticed.

*taken from pg 74-75 of the book*

God alwayz send His help when We cannot handle the test he has given us.. i guess.. this really bless me and make me understand whatever i had done is worth it.. and i shldnt care whether im being appreciated ..

hope this blesses you too =D

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at 5:42 PM
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it's like there's a sudden rush of people buying "the da vinci code book" .. to a point that all bookstores in CWP were out of stock.. been wanting to read it since i've heard about it.. church do sell "the da vinci code's deception" .. but i really wan to read what the original da vinci code is about lor.. haha..

here's a list of books i wana buy :

The Da Vinci Code
The Da Vinci Code's Deception
The Life of Pi
Cracking of The Da Vinci Code

haha... im obsessed with it..

aniwae.. liyun/raymund/alvin gave me a book .. haha.. it's very nice .. very inspirational.. can be found in mount zion.. Hugs for Friends.. ahhhhh.. the real life accounts were just too sweet and touching ..

oh yeah.. math mock exam was crap.. haha.. aniwae.. i PASSED ACCOUNTS.. 27/45.. haha.. i just love the number 27 heh~

[ made a wish* ]
at 5:36 PM
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Tuesday, July 27

im goin to do my hmk

im goin to study

rom12:2

yeah

[ made a wish* ]
at 9:02 PM
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feeling : pissed yet happy cuz im 16
listening : my dad singing karaoke..
thinking : i do not nid this.. it's my birthday!!!!

TODAY IS MY DAY!!! MY DAY!!! MY DAY!!! MY BIRTHDAY!! =X

let's start on a happier note!!! Gab's so nice to give me such sweet presents... i love it =D.. esp the purple liquid filled bottle.. and that sweet soft toy dog .. i've got a soft spot for soft toys.. haha.. aniwae.. she was like.. taking the dog and made some silly movements.. cute.. haha..
the class is so nice too.. they sang me a birthday song .. haha

ok.. on a less happier note.. yesterday jaz and chee ning had a fight.. and i think jaz's not in sch today is becuz of chee ning .. and guess what? gab and i were being sandwiched again!!! it's alwayz like this.. and guess wat? we've alwayz been there.. and tell me.. of one time.. when she wan to vent her anger on someone .. we werent there.. and really .. the words that she used really hurts.. i mean.. it doesnt affect me that much now .. cuz i dun bother alreadi.. and why dun i bother? becuz it doesnt help that you're being treated like trash and everytime u try to help u get bitten back.. once bitten.. twice shy .. guess what? it took me to get bitten for hundred times becuz i've learnt my lesson..

*here's an excerpt from Gab's view*

jasmine was absent today. cos of yesterday? and cheening was not in a good mood. cos of yesterday? so put 1 and 1 together..and you'll guess what happened yesterday. haha. i got an earful from cheening at recess . it was ok. during SS (ms haslinda was not here) we were talking..then she said (for the second time already) :" nvm, bear with all this for another few months and i don't need to see you all again."
so i got shocked again. i told her it's very hurting. i haven't done anything to her right? she said " i always felt you were closer to liying and anyway i feel that she doesn't like me." okkayyyy. i ignored her the rest of the day. enough explaining, because i'd done it already.
i know she always treated jasmine as her bestest friend and liying and i are just 'second-class' in her eyes. even after getting pissed by jasmine she'll be more worried why she hides herself away. she's like always chasing after jasmine and not getting appreciated. i 'm fine with that. all these months i've been trying to be there for her, whatever problems she has, and encourage her. when have i ever denied her the friendship? she doesn't open up, ok. i ll wait. and liying and i are always her pillows and dustbins (figure it out). true, liying and i are closer. but aren't she and jasmine closer too? they argue more too. and we're always getting sandwiched. so liying and i reached a point of neutrality yesterday in case we took sides.(we even have to resort to that)
and..occsionally there'll be blowups and attitude problems from them too. i've had enough ok.i just didn't know that in cheening's eyes, i'm just someone whom she doesn't have to see after a few months. wow. what have i been doing? even liying is pissed now.

*end*

get it?

if i dun like her or dun care about her .. WUD I BOTHER TO EVEN HANG OUT WITH HER?

if i dun like her or dun care about her .. WUD I BOTHER ABOUT ASKING HER TO CHURCH TO LET HER EXPERIENCE GOD?

what im doing now isnt really good.. im suppose to be loving .. but one has it limits.. and i nid my space to vent it out and THIS IS MY SPACE.

Matthew 10:14
"And whoever will not receive you nor hear your words, when you depart from that house or city, shake off the dust from your feet"

1 cor 13:4-8
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not ency; love does not parade itself; is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own , is not provoked , thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in truth; BEAR all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things, LOVE NEVER FAIL.

i guess.. i haven reach the capacity of loving all people the same.. we are not perfect.. i try to change my attitude each.. it's clearly stated in God's commandant .. to LOVE GOD WHOLEHEARTEDLY; LOVE PEOPLE FERVENTLY..
until the time i have the capacity in my heart the size of olympic swimming pool.. im able to BEAR ALL THINGS from people.. cuz really i LOVE THEM FERVENTLY..
but im so sorry.. i cant right now.. doesnt mean i wun..

and i still haven blog about my view... yeah.. this gonna be a LONG entry.. how ironic these things alwayz happen on my birthday..

i admit i do have my faults in not wanting to engage conversations with chee ning sometimes.. that IS becuz i dun wan to engage in silly conversation.. i wan to engage in conversations that WILL BLESS SOMEONE in return.. somehow i feel.. sometimes the conversation with her is so shallow.. so superficial.. so full of gossip.. and THIS IS NOT GOOD.. but that doesnt suddenly i hate her or wat.. im juz trying to change the way i carry myself.. God sae.. we are the salt of the earth and light of the world.. I wan HIS light to shine thru me.. and so .. i nid to check my every movement .. my every actions.. my every words..

Words can either hurt u or encourage u..

i juz wan to be a people who encourages.. who give hopes to the despair.. to lend a listening ear to those who are grieved.. but not as a venting machine..

im not perfect.. i m alwayz changing.. im so sorry for being such a bad friend.. im onli human..

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at 5:25 PM
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Sunday, July 25

my friend i stand in judgement now

My friend, i stand in judgement now
And feel that you're to be blamed somehow
On earth i walked with you each day
But never did you show the way

You knew the Lord in truth and glory
But never did you tell the story
My knowledge then was very dim
You could have led me saved to him

Though we lived together on this earth
You never told me of the second birth
And now i stand this day condemned
Because you failed to mention his name

You taught me many things that's true
I called you friend and trusted you
But now it is too late
You could have saved me from this fate

We walked by day and talked by night
And yet you showed me not the light
You let me live and love and die
You know i'd never live on high

Yes i called you friend in life
And trusted you through joy and life
And yet on coming to this end
I cannot now call you my friend

got that poem from Gab's.. hopes it enlightens all of us.. and helps my friends understand why im being so irritating by keeping on asking them the same question =X

aniwae.. im supposed to finish all my hmk yesterday..

but.. i was feeling so unusual.. cuz IM NOT SUPPOSE TO BE AT HOME

but.. but.. but.. still.. i feel so unusual not goin to church..

and .. and... yesterday cg sat at the third row

Bro M is leading..

they can see him so clearly

*loud cries*

but aniwae.. sacrifice is good .. yeah amen?

hehe..

i nid to get a grip in life..like school.. and God..

so .. off to church soon

i love you all ya? amen =D

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at 8:17 AM
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Friday, July 23

feeling : energetic yet tired ; relaxed yet worried ; alwayz contradicting myself
listening : to the sounds of silence...

ahhhhhhh!!!!!! yInGx!!! wake up!!! wake up!!!! PRELIM IS ONE MONTH AWAY!!! how cud u stay so relaxed and so indifferent!!!!

okie~ that doesnt help.. i still dun feel the tension/terror/stress that prelim is arriving in a mth's time.. so here i am.. still relaxed.. haven prepare anithing for my prelim.. confused abt organic chem.. in fact .. the whole textbk.. still hate accounts and not doing anithing about it..still daydreaming in physics class..feeling irritated in humanities classes... onli love english class.. okie.. i nid help.. seriously..

and gab is stressing me out with her new found love in doing hmk and studying ..

and i think im still sane and normal..

and i...i... i....i....i.... shld not be doing this

i shld be studying

okie...

nvm...

aniwae.. weekend connection this week!!

new song!!!

bro M is leading.. LoLx..

before im off to dreamland..

ehx... shoot me =D

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at 11:54 PM
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Matthew 11:28-30

"Come to Me, all you who labour and are heavy laden, and i will give you rest."..."Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your soul."..."For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."

hope this bless someone =D

i like to engage in godly fellowship.. there's when God will tap his presence into our fellowship .. and in the presence of God .. u can never find aniwae place comparable to this.. aniwae.. it's time i start studying.. i almost freaked out by Gab's outburst.. but.. okie.. i shall start studying.. when .. i've slept enuff hours =X.. haha.. okiex.. so erm.. i gtg out le..

NOTE to Gab
Hey .. if u nid someone .. call me.. i can alwayz pray for u..smilez =D

I really love God.. i love HIM .. i love HIM.. this love is expanding.. is growing.. is evermore exciting to be in love with God ..

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at 5:16 PM
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Thursday, July 22

feeling : dejected..

prelims oral sucks .. i onli got 28 / 40 .. i guess.. ms haslinda is too lenient le.. i got mr tsung for prelims.. and the marks i got leave me completely dejected... sighx..

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at 3:54 PM
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Wednesday, July 21

taken from my brother's blog
find it quite interesting ..
and can improve your vocabulary of.. hmm.. scolding people? LoLx

MANIACS
clinomania - excessive desire to stay in bed

doromania - obsession with giving gifts (everybody's friend!)

methomania - morbid craving for alcohol(so they are potomania who has trained to a higher level, what's next?)

potomania - abnormal desire to drink alcohol ( so they are alcoholics who has trained to a higher level)

oenomania - obsession or craze for wine( methomania in disguise?)

onomatomania - irresistible desire to repeat certain words(hahahahahaahahahahaha)

orchidomania - abnormal obsession with orchids (wonders how many of them are singaporeans)

chinamania obsession with collecting china (whoa...delicate situation here)

Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia

Allodoxaphobia- Fear of opinions.(no comments)

Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.(oh..so it is a fear)

Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth. (maybe teflon braces can be invented...)

Barophobia- Fear of gravity. (do those who suffer from this, work in space stations?)

Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting.(Valid excuse for exemption of the IPPT?)

Chronophobia- Fear of time. (well, its time to get some help. How do you help them anywae?)

Didaskaleinophobia- Fear of going to school.(here is one word u can use to avoid sch and still sound correct)

Eleutherophobia- Fear of freedom. (erm...a unique case where ppl chose to be locked up?)

Eosophobia- Fear of dawn or daylight. (hmm..might start growing fangs anytime)

Epistemophobia / Gnosiophobia- Fear of knowledge.(important piece of knowlegde)

Euphobia- Fear of hearing good news. ( omg , erm...a case of good news=bad news=good news = bad news =....)

Geliophobia- Fear of laughter. ( here is one fear i hope no one will get)

Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words.(you know..the fella who coined this fella has a weird sense of humor)

Polyphobia- Fear of many things (how convenient an excuse)

Scolionophobia- Fear of school. ( erm...is there a fear of army camps?)

[ made a wish* ]
at 3:20 PM
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haha.. racial harmony day aka photo taking day.. haha.. the photo taking craze is on ...everywhere i go .. i see people taking photos.. haha.. well.. im also one of them too.. haha.. was in the bus with gab just now.. taking photos of myself like nobody business..haha.. im an absolute narcissist.. haha.. aniwae.. my prelims oral is on tml.. i wonder how wud i fare? i want to get better marks den what i had gotten for the pre prelim oral.. haha.. perhaps 33 or 34?? God's grace and mercy be with me =D

aniwae.. was quite easily irritated by someone these few days.. i dunno why .. but.. whenever i see someone.. i will alwayz fall back on the friendship thingie.. it's driving me mad.. haha... and now i dun even noe what to do about it .. sighx...

aniwae.. when gab uploaded the racial harmony photo.. i will photo blog again.. haha.. so long

[ made a wish* ]
at 3:18 PM
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Tuesday, July 20

trying to have that classic look .. haha.. taken in church cafe

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at 8:59 PM
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for once.. i looked more mature den aries .. hahahahahahha =X

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at 8:58 PM
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me and nana at rivera.. haha.. waitin to go down to choir

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at 8:56 PM
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dun i look mature =D .. im gonna get contacts and stop people from asking me if im taking PSLE this year .. muahahahaha

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at 8:54 PM
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Monday, July 19

ahhh.. im still so tired.. how come?!?!?!?!?! too stress? haha.. blehx.. alwayz try to study.. but .. but.. but.. never mind -.-''.. *yawns* .. i nid someone to help me .. haha .. FOCUZ!!.. aniwae.. im too tired to blog animore.. haha

[ made a wish* ]
at 9:50 PM
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blehx.. im so tired.. i think im gonna break down.. haha.. aniwae.. im goin to slp . den i wake up and do hmk.. *hopefully* .. aniwae.. juz changed my handphone with my dad.. siemens.. quite cute lah.. the glow in the dark de i guess.. haha.. i think im a bit slow.. but i like it .. haha.. it's very small and cute .. and yeah.. *slp*

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at 5:56 PM
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Sunday, July 18

went to church today for discipleship .. actually went in for svc 5 for praise and worship.. yeah.. it's great as usual.. bro mark was leading .. and yeah.. to think we are changing back to youth service.. im a bit nostalgic lah.. yeah.. Pastor prayed for all the sec 1 - 5s.. ITEs.. and JCs .. so sad =~ .. i wan the annointing from Pastor.. but yeah.. den again .. i noe that my turn will come next time..

actually .. sometimes.. christians get stumbled of certain things.. sometimes.. is why the prayers they prayed.. somehow God didnt answer them.. for me.. i noe .. God do answer prayers.. but He wans the BEST for us.. If he didnt give it to us.. it's becuz HE knows.. we cannot handle it.. Fresh revelations of God came upon me today.. was very blessed by the fellowship juz now.. yee wen , dinah and me.. we were just sharing.. and God's presence was there.. what started out as a very simple prayer ends up in a very powerful blessing and we learnt alot from each other.. was very glad when dinah told me .. ive grown alot.. more mature spiritually.. and i really thank God that He has changed me ..

fellowship is very impt.. which is why now.. this few days.. i felt the Lord speaking to me.. be wise.. and it hits me.. the conversations i had with my friends.. is it all just so worldly? is it juz gossiping? does it BLESS others? it hit me... no .. it doesnt.. and i wan to change.. for i dun wan to grieve the Holy Spirit.. God is speaking to us everyday.. it is whether we bother to listen or not.. and ME .. i've grown.. definately.. i knew it.. and i wan to be wise in the way i carry myself.. im sorry to my other friends tat suddenly finds im too boring or what.. but i noe what is good for me.. and what's not.. like what gab said.. i alwayz fall back on the very essence of friendship i had in school.. however.. in due season .. we shldnt forget about the harvest .. which is why i still bother..and which is why im sttill there.. strong for the Lord.. i stumble easily .. but i alwayz come back to God.. i noe what is Good for me.. and what's not..

God will alwayz bless us.. God Loves us .. im so upset by the backsliders.. when some people out there who didnt even have the chance to hear the gospel once.. but they had to listen to it twice.. and be hardened in their hearts.. turning back from God .. but i will not be stumbled by them.. finally.. it's time to get out of it.. to snap out of it..

i just hope someone understands.. and i hope .. u do

[ made a wish* ]
at 11:51 PM
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i can do all things .. i can be successful in doing all things.. i can be joyful and happy alwayz.. i got the strength to face each day challenges.. u noe why? becu. i Got Jesus as my Lord and Saviour =D

i can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me
I am the HEAD and not the tail
the JOY of the Lord is my strength =D

tt's why =D

felt very very very very very blessed to be in city harvest church .. the presence of God was so tangible in the audi during svc yesterday.. i cried out for him .. to fill me once again .. God is a faithful God..

Crossing Over - City Harvest Church

WE come before your Throne
our Hearts we Give to You
WE long to see your kingdom come
and Bring Your Truth to all the EArth
Nations will cry out your name
Send us to your harvest Lord we pray

By your spirit O Lord
WE claim the nations
Of the world for you Jesus
Pour Down your rain
Holy Spirit move in us today
By your spirit O lord
WE claim the nations
Of the world for You Jesus
By your word of truth
WE're crossing over
To win the Lost For you

Your Cross before our eyes
You've set our hearts on fire
to give what we can never keep
to gain what we can never lose

im glad to be part of city harvest family.. i love my pastors.. i love my church .. i love God .. i love God's people.. i love the unchurched.. i love everyone.. even though sometimes.. people hate u and people dun like u .. i've learnt to love them as well.. cuz they matter to God.. and they matter to me .. God loves them.. and so I love them.. for even when we are stil sinners.. God demostrated his love for us when He sent His perfect son to die on the cross for us.. to take away all our sins.. that is why ..

yesterday was the last day in svc 3... i really miss it .. and i felt like staying there and not goin back to svc 2.. but we shld get out of our comfort zone.. we will have a breakthrough.. when we sacrifice.. God noes.. and tht's all it matters... yesterday .. the choir group celebrated my birthday..to my surprise.. there's another girl who shares the same birth date as me =D .. amazing huh? hehe.. well though she's older .. haha.. aniwae... they got me this really wonderful present.. the newest(??) hillsong CD!!! For all you're done.. super super happy .. cuz i was juz walking past the attributes that evening.. and i was like staring at the cd lor. but i can only buy after my mission pledge!! *sacrifice* .. but PRaise the Lord.. i got it for birthday .. haha.. they preordered my present.. so touching.. it's like one big family .. i noe God will bless me de.. cuz He alwayz do =D..

goin to study later.. i got the motivation =D .. i will shine for JESUS .. amen =D.. and im gonna make sure i study.. i must nt get complacent.. and in the meanwhile.. i will go ALL out for JEsus.. amen =D.. I will win the Lost for him ..

im so blessed to be in the house of God
i cant wait for my friends to be in there too
the joy overpowering me
we serve a God That's so wonderful..

I LOVE JESUS ..
I LOVE YOU TOO =D
God bless ..

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at 10:06 AM
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Saturday, July 17

im tired!!! haha.. juz reached home.. came back from church.. had make up bible study today.. went to church at 3. but waited for sis bao lian until 3:50pm .. ahh.. den continue to wait until 6.. before my bs actually started.. haha.. after that i waited for millie and audrey .. den waited for them again for their make up bible study .. but i enjoy going to church.. it feels like home =D

hmMmm.. juz wanna share something about the rainer scale... yeah .. it's a survey conducted by a team under the leader.. dunoo dunno what Rainer.. thus came the name lah.. and the survey was done in a period of two years..
they categoried the unchurched mainly into 5 different grps
U1 - very friendly ( highly receptive to the gospel)
U2 - friendly ( receptive to the gospel and to the church)
U3 - Neutral ( no apparent receptivity , neutral , perhaps open to discussion)

i shall talk about these 3 positive groups first.. since im like half asleep..

The U3 are mainly "Leaners" and "apathetics" .. they are neither here nor there , mainly U3 are make up of males .. and yeah .. they are very very neutral.. and very very indifferent to the gospel *sounds familiar?* .. however .. they are eager to learn.. and THEY are juz waiting to be invited to church..

The U2 are the "SeekEr" .. not harry potter that kind .. but U2 are mainly youth or young adult.. females tend to be U1 or a U2 .. or the extreme U5(antagonistic).. they are receptive to the gospel.. and THEY are waiting to be invited to church

the U1 are the "most reachable" .. every christians dream target.. well.. i guess it is pretty self explainatory .. yeah

guess what? i used to be a U5 .. den becoming a U4 .. den a U2 .. den a U1 .. yeah PTL.. i was saved.. and i really wan to thank God that my friends never give up on me.. and continue to pray for me .. and now im here.. serving the Lord.. growing stronger for Him each day .. amen =D.. im very inspired.. so it's like.. i will continue to pray for all my unchurched friends.. and i noe that .. the seeds that i have sown will be reap by someone someday.. and i noe that i played a part in that person's life too ... so friends.. bear with me hor? i will be like ..keep on asking u to come to my church .. and i will be very persistent.. cuz i really cares for all of you .. every single one.. and i wud like u to have a personal encounter with God .. and u will noe how real.. it's never by explanation.. cuz it is not of the natural realm .. but of the spiritual realm.. AMEN =D

and lastly.. I LOVE YOU ALL!!! really i do .. when i sae i love you all.. i care and no matter what.. i will be there for all of you .. Cuz i noe You matter to God .. and you matter to me .. amen =D

i adore God so much.. how about you?

God bless...

*muacks* =D

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at 12:13 AM
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Thursday, July 15

listening : Mandy Moore - cry
feeling : somesort happy.. somesort worried.. somesort indifferent

haha.. im happy becuz during pre prelims oral today .. i got 32/40 .. yeah.. and i was so nervous before it.. my hands were cold and my face was red .. haha.. i was hot and cold at the same time.. i was worried about my picture discussion.. but in the end.. i scored the best ..ms haslinda said that i was the best at describing pic among all the students she had tested..here's my result

reading aloud : 10/12
picture discussion : 11/12
conversation :11/16

well.. basically i sucks in conversation.. i guess i shld like.. work harder? aniwae.. ning , jaz , gab and i went to mac for lunch today.. after that .. jaz and ning got me a wallet =D .. yeah.. but i felt some sort of tension between the three lah.. and i was like.. trying to be chirpy and smiley.. yeah.. but i got a new revelation yesterday .. and it really lifted me .. and for once. i decided.. to be more tolerant and be more patient and more compassionate.. yeah.. that really makes me a better person .. hehe..aniwae..

God Bless All
smilez alwayz
love you all

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at 4:00 PM
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juz reached hm .. bible study was great.. am more prepared to bring souls to the kingdom of God..yeah.. nothing is impossible for God .. amen =D .. i will keep on praying for all my unchurched friends .. i noe that the seed that i've sown .. will be reap in due time .. haha.. tts all.. and yeah.. i skipped pre prelims oral today.. supposed to have it lah.. but i waited for 1/2 an hr .. still no sign of the teacher...so.. i go hm lor.. haha

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at 12:26 AM
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Tuesday, July 13

decided to go tml's bs instead of today.. haha.. aniwae.. went to cwp after school .. ning wanna get me a wallet.. so go see .. haha =X .. aniwae.. i was on the bus.. den i saw my brother.. so we sit facing each together in the 911 bus seats.. and i was talking to him .. den suddenly the man beside him turn to me and rant on something about building.. *sighx*.. i alwayz seem to have this affinity with crazy people.. i dunno why ... i haven catch spiderman 2 leh.. my kor sae very nice... but hor jaz sae not nice .. ehx... how leh?... haha.. aniwae.. im havin prelims eng oral tml.. im gonna be so dead..aniwae.. these few days like nothing to blog.. my life is getting more and more boring each day.. soon.. this blog is gonna be dead

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at 7:17 PM
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Monday, July 12

im jealous!!!!!!!!

how come my cg members get to talk to BM??

get to see BM?

huh?

talk me!!!!

even sis bao lian and him were contactable friends

were , aniwae

but still

im jealous =~

i simply adore Him

haha

[ made a wish* ]
at 9:18 PM
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this is so sweet rite .. hehe.. my new layout.. actually .. i wanted to change to the nature scenery de.. but this caught my eyes =D .. aniwae... had nothing to blog.. but i dun wanna declare my blog dead or on hiatus .. so yeah..

God bless everyone ..

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at 6:22 PM
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Sunday, July 11

am watching NKF children medical fund charity show.. a wave of emotions juz hit me.. a mixture of feelings..
click here if u wan to noe how i felt that instant

why are we chasing after things that are so superfical.. isnt there more things that are more worthy of our time? why izzit everyone is becoming so selfish.. where is the love in this world?

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at 10:00 PM
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watching the charity show now.. mixure of feelings and emotions..

hmm.. shld update my another blog.. i guess..

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at 9:37 PM
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Saturday, July 10

had my farewell party today.. was pretty touched by their preparation..esp the time of post-it-notes.. i rcvd heart warming wishes.. and at that exact moment.. i felt as if im gonna cry.. but i din.. cuz it's me stepping down.. i had cried enuff for the past 3 years everytime seniors stepped down.. haha..

church svc was great.. made a sacrifice.. and trust God for it..

actually had alot to sae.. but my bro wanna use -.-'' .. so tml i wud update. if i can =D

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Friday, July 9

woah.. time passed really fast today.. was out of chinese clz for 1 mth.. Praise the Lord.. i can really use that time to study for my weaker subjects.. yup.. i think ive been knocked to the reality by my friends.. i mean.. they started studying like eons ago? it makes me reflect on myself.. and .. it'S TIME to start work .. and im gonna shine for Christ .. yup yup.. today had accounts lessons.. for the first time in my life.. i bothered to try some questions.. lolx.. i mean.. accounts and me .. we are not the best kind of friends .. yeah.. debit and credit doesnt really go well with me.. haha.. aniwae.. it was quite fun .. having tutorials tml .. accounts.. wat else? after that .. im having gg farewell party .. and it's about time.. but yeah.. cut that tears and all the reluctance.. im quite glad that we finally stepped down.. cuz it sort of like weighing like a burden in my heart.. but im gonna miss girl guides.. and all the campfires and stuffs.. and all the shuai ges =~ .. haha..

aniwae.. reached home pretty early today.. around 1+ .. yeah.. was playing pokemon ..*shoot me* .. haha.. aniwae.. initially was goin for school revival prayer meeting.. but den .. i waiting for almost 1 hr.. my church mate din show up .. and praise the lord.. im patient enuff .. haha.. last time.. when i waited for my friend for almost up to 2 hr.. i totally blew up .. at least now.. im better..Christ has indeed changed me.. yeah.. hehe

okie.. enuff of my boring life.. aniwae... weekend connection is like onli 2 weeks away? i cant wait for that to arrive.. i pray i have lots of friends .. and yeah.. im turning 16 in eighteen days time?

haha

peace out..

love ya all

God bless u

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Thursday, July 8

time for a real blog .. haha.. i mean.. these few days i was too busy .. or perhaps.. becuz im deprived from slp .. therefore i didnt blog much.. well.. aniwae.. here i am.. at 11+ tryin to blog my life today before going to slp .. haha.. went for cell group just now.. it was great.. juz like the conference.. actually.. it's somesort a repetition of the conference .. but a good sermon is worth listening twice .. amen =D .. aniwae.. im really psyched for the weekend connection big day.. i pray that i will have a lot of friends goin for it.. and yeah.. they will recieve Christ and stay lor.. hehe.. actually.. im feelin sleepy now .. so erm.. i will continue tml? =X

peace out?

love ya all

and God bless you all

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juz came back from church... had revival conference today.. and next week.. and yeah.. it was great .. and i was really encouraged and i believe that im able to lead at least one person to christ by the end of this year.. aniwae.. i did have alot to write .. but time was runnin out.. im tired and i got chem test tml.. plus i got chem tys homework.. and yeah..

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Wednesday, July 7

had chi orals today.. was pretty nervous.. okie.. i think im darn nervous .. i was like panicking 10 mins before reporting to the classroom.. clara and gab were testing me .. and i was like.. stumped?? .. aniwae.. i was the 3rd person.. maybe good maybe bad.. but o well.. the passage was easy .. but i was too nervous that im weak in my knees.. and shaking and stuff.. and i stumbled a few words.. but thx God.. the articulation was there *phew*.. bao zhang bao dao was on the 5 caucasians speaking perfect chinese .. and how i feel lah.. i was ok on the start .. den i started to stumble a bit.. cuz i dunno how to sae role model in chinese and i was half the time trying to translate from english to chinese.. but overall.. i guess.. it's quite okie lah..

and i cannot believe this!!! i got the same conversation topic as my brother did three years ago!!!! household chores?? i mean.. HOUSEHOLD CHORES?? okok.. i crapped alot.. and the examiners asked me whether i did any household chores.. and i am tempted to tell the truth =X .. but however.. not wanting to jeopardize my marks.. i said i did .. LoLx .. and i crapped about helping to lessen my parent's burden.. what they had a long day at work .. and if they come home and have to face a whole deal of chores .. it will drain their energy .. haha..

im a crapper... haha.. i shld tell my brother about this.. and yeah Praise the Lord i talked to my brother about oral.. and he shared some crapped stuff with me.. hahah

aniwae.. my LC either gonna get 14 or 16 .. and im praying for the latter =D

oh yeah.. im going to church revival conference later.. tml got chemistry chemical analysis test.. and i got a whole deal of chem tys work to complete..

IM TIRED...

welll....on a happier note

CHINESE IS OVER

yeah..

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and all those peeking in to my blog

a big

HeLlO

haha.. im hyped.. chinese is over !!

God bless and

peace out =D

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Tuesday, July 6

the sisters grp =D .. onli got 4 brothers.. so dun bother to take them =X

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millie and i .. taken by .. us *lame* .. millie very pretty hor

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Monday, July 5

group photo at palawan beach =D

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me? marching at sentosa? LoLx .. kena caught oogling at the hunks in the background

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taken in sentosa!! during cg outing

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was playing pokemon sapphire .. haha.. i know i know.. im a bit slow and a bit childish...but i was watching pokemon advanced generation*yes yes i do watch cartoons* .. and yeah.. so i decided to dl and play .. hahaa.. slept at 6am today.. was on comp more den 20 hrs.. haha.. half playing pokemon .. hahah.. im addicted..

okie.. i haven done my homework.. so i better get started .. ehx.. and yeah.. practised on orals and.. erm? study bahz.. haha.. if i can get away from pokemon .. haha..

BM was singing yesterday ... haha..~~

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Friday, July 2

yay~ finally i learnt how to read tabs.. but im still quite slow.. haha.. was playing "you are my world - hillsong" love it.. it's nice .. and yeah.. tml is chi listening compre.. God i pray.. Bless my friends and I in this exams =D

yeah.. im goin to church later for choir prac.. but i cudnt make it to overnight prayer meeting due to my listening compre tml.. i love going to pm.. that's the onli time i can really pray so fervently .. with others around.. hehe.. yeah.. so i gtg le..

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Thursday, July 1

let the object of objection be but a dream ... i really think that ive grown more mature.. in my thinking and my actions? i mean.. everyone do needs to release that inner child in them .. so as not to let go of their child-like self.. perhaps i show much too often? haha.. i know.. it's time to change.. and im surprised it took me a long time.. i mean.. yeah.. i think most people wun get used to the new me that fast .. im like.. totally laid back now.. against opinions of others? i think i had a new revelation or something.. i mean.. the greater purpose is to fulfill the great commission of God and yeah.. im gonna do tt.. so thatz what i gearing my life into..

many people dun understand me.. but i will try to understand them.. i will try to love them.. i will try to bring them to christ.. even though i do have lots of enemies out there .. waiting to prey on me when the oppurtunity arises.. but i guess.. i will follow the commandments of God.. nothing is ever easy... i just have to do it for God.. and yeah.. i am gonna to love God more.. to have Faith like Abramham and Abel.. i am gonna give my best

it's not everytime a person change.. so now.. when im changed.. take it .. the new ME.. and yeah.. im definately more mature now..

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cool.. been seeing rainbow for the past two days in sch

it's so beautiful

some of my mates had their chinese orals today

and man.. they sae that the examiners are very gl..

sighx..

wonder how wud i fare?

hmm.. decided to do my best.. and let God do the rest

yesterday .. had a chat with one of my seniors

apparently .. a miracle happened for him during o lvl

he onli chiong after prelims

and yeah.. results were good

praise the lord

but i dun juz wan ani miracles happening like that

i wan to work hard

and God blesses me too

so i guess..

i shld be starting on revision?

suddenly.. the time seems so tight

i had better things to worry about

so i decided to let go of something

and concentrate on another

so yeah..

124 more days to O lvl..

26 more days to sweet 16.. LoLx.. im gonna walk in to the K pool .. flashes my IC.. and den walk out

sounds crazy?

nahz.. sounds totally me =D

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