m y // l i t t l e // s e c r e t s ......

Friday, April 30

english paper today was ?? well.. i din noe what to sae cuz i din feel anithing lor.. im like detached from all emotions... my friends were like nervous and all.. but i feel nothing? compre passage was about space.. and it sucks i guess? my friends feel that RGS mock paper is easier den ours .. i somehow agree??

i chose expository essay .. " Young people nowadays are only interested in pursuing material gains. Do you agree?" actually .. i din noe what to expect now .. was feeling so numb that i dun think i have ani emotions at all?

pray i can get A1 .. if i do .. PRAISE THE LORD .. according to my sch standard.. no one ever reach A1 .. so .. juz passed .. good enuff for me

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Thursday, April 29

was very disappointed with myself.. got back both social studies and history test results.. i failed both .. scoring 4/13 and 4/12 respectively .. im still in a state of shock .. cuz.. im suppose to be quite good with my humans.. alwayz scoring good results.. but now .. i dunno what happen .. but i guess.. if i dun pull up my socks.. i shall be crying my heart out when i get back my o lvl results.. which is why i guess.. i have to work mighty hard.. it seem trite.. but hey ... im serious .. aniwae.. tml marks the start of mid yr .. or i guess prelims 1? aniwae.. was quite nervous.. feeling quite dubious.. im having alot of thts in my mind .. i guess.. the main cause is fear? fearing of failing the most impt subject? fearing of disappointing myself? fearing of... i guess.. i shld let faith take over fear.. for with fear.. faith cant works.. i will trust God with my results bah.. im goin to cell group today .. but i think .. i can make it bahx.. hehe

brought back a huge pile of books .. helping jaz bring de .. den im like buried behind the books.. haha.. of cuz not that exaggerated lah.. but .. itz like having tons of weight acting on ur arms.. but i guess.. thx God my bag is heavy as well.. so im able to balance ? LoLx .. goin to choir prac tml after english.. hmm.. wish me all the best? pray for me k? i think i nid all the prayers .. haha.. with my foundation so weak.. i have absolutely no idea how im gonna make it.. haha.. but hey .. leave it to God ..

and to all having exams.. work hard horx... after pia-ing for a couple more months.. we can burn away all these evil books =X ..

oh yeah .. my listening compre got 6/10 .. teacher sae i was too excited before the exam .. i was like -.-'' .. i was juz laughing non stop that = excited? well either way .. it somehow affects my performance.. thus the results >.< .. i gues i have to work extra hard for chinese paper 1 and 2 .. to get back the marks.. or else .. if i din reach distinction .. i wud have to take chinese for later part of the year.. which i hope not .. and i wan to score A1 for this coming Os lor .. hehe..i believe i can do it de.. but i must be very focused.. i think .. this few days.. im losing my focus .. but i will try not to get affected .. wel.. i guess thatz all??

hey peeps.. must miss me k? haha.. mite not be online for a pretty long time .. so long ..

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Wednesday, April 28

feeling very happy today.. hehe .. Praise the Lord! .. i passed the RGS english mock paper thingie .. haha.. really lor.. alreadi the marks nt very good lah.. but nonetheless .. i passed... hehe.. and i got back my chemistry paper.. i passed too .. although the day before i was at bible study and i reached home quite late.. but in the end.. the results still okie lah.. i passed.. and im happy... im gonna share testimony during cell again.. which is why im goin for my own cell group .. but i think i will be leaving early .. cuz next day english mid yr exams..haha.. i pray that God will continue to shower His favour on me.. and giving me His grace to ace the examinations .. haha.. PRAISE THE LORD!!!

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Tuesday, April 27

benny chan is cute .. annie man is so pretty . they made a great couple in the show whatever it takes ... but that show got a weird ending .. in the end .. faory biyao was reincarnated and became Yang YuHuan .. the famous Lady Yang who was solely responsible for the fall of Tang Dynasty .. the whole thing is weird lah.. and i dunno why am i bloggin this too..

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at 8:14 PM
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mid yr exams starting this fri.. shld i go choir prac on wed or fri? *ponders* aniwae.. english on fri .. so i better buck up all my vocab words to wow my teacher in my essay writing.. *rolled eyes* as if i can write a good piece of essay without any mistake in grammar and expression.. im gonna flung it .. *sighx* .. at least i try not to .. so far.. i've been passing english .. haha.. tsk tsk.. den again.. if im gonna go jc.. i haf to do better in my language .. so gp can score well.. haiz..
chinese o round the corner... after mid yr ... we will have 1 week of intensive chinese mock .. to the extend that we wun be having ani lessons except mock paper for chinese.. i think im gonna go crazy.. no wonder our sch can maintain the 90+% of distinction rate in my sch..
welll aniwae.. im gonna mug like no one cares.. so .. if im online.. dun talk to me..

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at 3:29 PM
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Monday, April 26

oh yeah .. suddenly remember .. i forgot to blog about sch .. okie.. this's interesting.. on our way to chemistry lab .. we were walking lah *duh* .. me and jaz were talking .. den suddenly .. something hit our legs and ran across.. at first i tht is a cat.. den i looked down .. and saw a huge rat.. i was stunned for a moment.. den the rat ran towards one of my classmates.. so i screamed .. haha.. actually i want to warn her.. but make things worse.. my clz girls heard me scream .. they screamed too.. haha.. itz so funny lor.. and my sch really got nothing to sae... i nvr see such a big rat in my whole life before.. enriching .. LoLx

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at 5:08 PM
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everything returned to sort of normal lor.. but i m so afraid .. as if this is a time bomb.. den there comes a time.. when everything will explode again.. i think everyone is being reticent .. maybe i guess.. we dun noe how to start and we are afraid.. really afraid.. i guess.. i leave it to time and leave it to God..

aniwae.. haven do my emath mock and paper 1 and 2.. haix. still online.. dunno do what sia.. haha.. mid year this fri.. hmmm.. am i prepared? i dun think so .. been listening to lots of love songs lately.. haha.. memories juz floated right into my mind .. shall not think so much.. concentrate on O bah.. if itz meant to be . den .. no matter what it will happen.. everything is in God's plan.

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at 4:13 PM
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Sunday, April 25

You Are Everything
by Diana Ross

Oh darling
I want to be everything to you

Today I saw somebody
Who looked just like you
He walked like you do
I thought it was you
As he turned the corner
I called out your name
I felt so ashamed
When it wasn't you
Wasn't you

You are everything
And everything is you
Oh, you are everything
And everything is you
'Cause you are everything
And everything is you

How can I forget
When each face that I see
Brings back memories
Of being with you
I just can't go on
Living life as I do
Comparing each girl with you
Knowing they just won't do
They're not you

'Cause you are everything
And everything is you
Oh, you are everything
And everything is you
You are everything
And everything is you

[ made a wish* ]
at 9:11 PM
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changed my screen res to 1024 thingy .. haha.. now it look so small.. but ... nice... haha.. dad's complaining.. asking me why i change .. haha.. aniwae... suppose to do my emath mock exam... think im procrastinate again.. had been sleeping all the afternoon.. haha.. still tired rite now.. i wonder what happen to my body system? breaking down soon? i hope not .. at least let it endure until Os over .. lots of things happened over the weekend..m i still brooding over that incident? i dun think so .. i think .. i aleradi give up le.. really.. to me.. itz a hopeless situation.. i tried to be there.. and i m there.. but this is draining away all my energy ... i tried to brush it off.. with the reason that that person nids me.. to be there.. to be a listener.. i kept all the attitudes that had been given to me.. i guess.. it isnt doin me ani good.. mite think im selfish.. but.. im tired out.. i wan to stop.. stop letting myself get hurt times and times again.. to be in the middle... no .. i dun wan to ..

i cant sae im not sad... there's no use crying over spilled milk.. what happened has happened... i cant go back in time and change history.. if God made it happen.. it is meant to happen..

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Friday, April 23

Psychology Programme

The objective of the Psychology programme at the BA level is to provide a full basic academic grounding in psychology. The programme aims to provide knowledge of human development, social processes, cognitive processes, mental health and adjustment of individuals, and an understanding of the applications of psychology. It also develops skills in undertaking studies of behaviour and the use of statistics and computers for data analyses.

Students who major in Psychology have a choice of courses to pursue in their second and third year. This versatility, together with other disciplines in Arts and Social Sciences, will prove useful when seeking employment in the business, industrial, financial, and service sectors.

Those applying for Psychology must have at least a pass in Mathematics at the GCE 'O' level.

Psychology Honours and Postgraduate Course

Honours students in Psychology are those who have majored in Psychology and have obtained good grades. It is envisaged that psychology honours graduates will be employed in industrial, military, medical, social service, and other relevant settings.

Among these graduates, some will go on to become professionals, qualified in areas such as industrial, educational, clinical, counselling, environmental psychology, as well as ergonomics.

Master of Social Science (Psychology) by research is offered. Candidates with a good degree in psychology can be considered and they will need to undertake research work in any psychological issues or field under the supervision of an assigned academic staff. The minimum study period is 1 year. Research scholarship is available.

Career Prospects

Students who major in Psychology will find their knowledge and training useful in whatever career they pursue. Those who go on to take Honours in Psychology are likely to find employment in settings where their potential, as future professional psychologists, is particularly useful to the employer. Psychologists in Singapore are employed in various settings, including the Ministries of Defence, Community Development, Education, and Health, the ITEs, the National Productivity Board, various voluntary social service organizations, as well as in consultancy firms and research organizations.

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basically.. thatz the course i've been dreaming to do since i was like 10 yrs old? haha.. i really love psychology.. dun ask me why.. itz interesting =)

so well.. in order to go there.. have to go junior colleges.. so i have to aim for some rite.. so yeah.. im aiming for

I. St Andrews' Jc
II. Catholic Jc

if everything else fail.. im gonna go to pj or yj..

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it happened.. finally happened.. the event i forsee a few days ago has finally happened... the bomb was dropped.. everyone was upset/frustrated ... so the question now is .. is it really worth it? i dun know.. i really dun know.. somehow i feel.. this is sort of God sent.. esp after yesterday cgm.. it really struck me that moment.. in my mind.. all i can see is the friendship that i had with her.. so now .. i noe..by doin so .. im a bad friend.. yeah.. im .. perhaps.. and i guess.. the clique is broken up .. can the bonds be strong again? i doubt so.. okie.. im being cynical.. judgemental even? oh well.. i guess.. i shld let go of this friendship .. let go and let god

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Thursday, April 22

juz came back from cgm.. itz great.. was late to meet fiona and her friend at interchange .. cuz the bus driver was driving so slow lor.. i walk also faster sia.. so i was very impatient.. and was like.. lookin at the clock.. den glare at the driver.. and wishing that he wud just drive faster.. but oh well.. he didnt... *rolled my eyes*.. aniwae... Bro Kelvin preached about being a true christian friend part B .. he talked about what kinds of friends we shld avoid having close friendship with .

I. Lazy people
II. Angry people
III. Greedy people
IV. Sexually Immoral People
V. unbelievers

i do think that many people wud raise eyebrows at the last point .. unbelievers
... critics mite comment that ->" aint christian suppose to love everyone? aint them suppose to be friends to everyone and try to save them" .. well . the thing is .. we can love people and try to bring that person to the love without really having a close relationship . i guess it sort of make sense.. this brings me to the 3 criteria u shld look for in a close friendship

I. SOmeone u can share ur burden with
II. Someone that can help u spiritually
III. Someone that can help u to be wise..

now.. by saying all this.. what's my purpose? okie.. im tryin to convince myself.. that .. some friendships im havin is nt exactly helping me.. and i think i know what to do..

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at 11:15 PM
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eng mock today.. the exams questions were extracted from RGS and ACS(I) papers.. so .. to us .. a neighbourhood school.. itz deemed as difficult.. but .. i have completed it in 1 hr or so .. haha.. so i spent the rest of the time.. dreaming.. haha.. itz a full paper 2 questions.. den my teacher was like staring at me.. den i stared at the rain.. absorbing the essence of the rain .. haha.. i love rain.. i absolutely adore light rain.. the sound of plattering raindrops upon the rooftop of my block.. the rain smell .. hehe.. i noe it seems weird .. cuz usually people love sun and sunshine all those stuff.. but i love rain.. i guess.. that separates me from the usual stereotype girls.. haha.. aniwae.. me and gab boarded 962 bus.. and we were discussing on some stuff.. den the girl sitted in front of us carried a purple handphone porch .. den her handphone keychain was the word rain .. and from the back view.. we assumed that she's ard 20+ lor.. den we were talking about rain smell.. and i was like .. pointin at her.. and sae.. rain... smell? lolx... den when she turned around to alight... to our surprise.. she's actually a late 40s to early 50s plus woman... i looked at gab.. and she looked at me.. at the same time .. we burst out laughing.. we were hysterical.. well.. maybe nt that strong lah.. we were astounded?? hahah..

aniwae.. changed my blog temp again.. haha.. a reply to daryl's question.. i love changing blog temp.. cuz the same old one is so boring.. .. aniwae.. mid yr next week le wor~ .. must gear up liao .. hehe.. intensive studying.. haha..

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Wednesday, April 21

the sec 1s are getting more and more immature and rowdy .. to think that they should alreadi forsake all that when they stepped into secondary school.. such a pity.. our discipline mistress announced a few days ago .. during announcement time.. asking the lower sec to behave themselves.. not to make so much noises during their breaktime and causing the upper sec to get distracted .. and guess what? she added... and stop chasing lizards around in school.. the sec 4s were all dumbfounded.. in shock .. i mean .. our school has lizards? the teachers were laughing and in a few moment .. the sec 4 were like laughing/giving comments to each other.. i mean.. i dun even see ani lizards in school until that announcement that time.. i mean.. they actually chase it all around sch? tsk tsk.. poor lizards.. i mean.. they are not my fave insect.. but to get torment and terrorize the sec 1.. itz a pity .. they are absolutely arrogant and conceited lor...if i werent nice.. i wud have.. but too bad.. im nice.. haha.. but really .. they are like .. top of the world... as though the whole world revolve ard them.. and them onli .. i mean.. the tht make me puke.. *sorry for my crude lang* haha..but really .. i cant stand it.. esp when they are blocking our way to somewhere and act indifferent .. yeah.. try it the next time.. and they shall noe what seniors can do =X ..

well.. another thing is .. the people in my sch like to sae.. oh my god *sorry* For Jesus's sake and all sorts of phrase that uses god's name in vain.. this juz irks me alot.. cuz.. really.. we cant use god's name in vain... and they are saying like as thou saying hello to each other.. *rolled my eyes* next time anieone sae that .. i will snap .. or i will juz bite ..

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at 5:31 PM
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feeling : giddy and nauseous

went home straight after school today.. din go for emath mock exams.. was not feeling well.. and i felt that i might faint anitime .. chem test today.. although got study lah.. but with my physical condition... my mind's in a blank.. smthing like having a mental block.. so i juz sleep =D .. but i finished the whole paper lor.. yeah.. also dunno what to blog le.. cant think.. but i noe i got alot to comment.. haha.. cya later

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at 3:47 PM
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juz reached home 10 mins ago .. was in church for bs .. itz great .. but i was really tired .. and i almost slept.. but praise the lord.. i dint.. itz his strength.. haha.. tml got two tests lor.. quite dot dot.. emath mock and chem.. okie.. i shall trust god.. and yeah.. my friend juz reminded me mid yr start next week.. a wake up call for me.. i haven start my revision... sighx... i guess.. i have to put in extra effort.. okie.. shall blog till here.. cant think ..

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at 12:18 AM
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Sunday, April 18

Artist: Moffatts
Album: Submodalities
Title: Who Do You Love

Verse # 1

Here we are
You tell me i'm the only one
That makes you feel alive ¡ again
And there you go
I see you watching him
When you don't think i know
Should i let you go

So who's it gonna be
Is it him or me

Chorus

Who do you love
Who do you need
You're messing up my mind
And wasting all my time
Who do you love
What do you feel

Stop playing with my heart
You're tearing me apart
Am i the one
Who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
Than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love

Verse # 2

Turnaround
Do you really think
You'll play me like a fool
For you
And then i realize
That when you touch me
It's like nothing i have known
Could i let you go

Chorus

Chorus

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at 11:19 PM
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hey .. juz came here to give a little update.. haha.. still got lots of hmk.. >.<.. i shall not be afraid.. the absence of fear is faith.. so i shall have faith .. i can finish all my hmk today.. hiak hiak... emath is the worst of all .. so many questions.. and i din have enuff graph paper and i still have to do the entire tys topic on trigos juz becuz i din do one question.. *haiz* .. try nt to be tired.. so i came online.. hehe.. yeah.. tml still got test >.<.. gotta go study liao le.. 8 A1s .. here i come =D

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at 10:14 PM
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am really glad that i really mustered enuf courage to walk to the altar .. i knew that my life is in a mess.. i seem to be running from it everytime.. i dun wan to face it.. i felt helpless but i refused help and comfort from god.. i was living a life of delusions.. days pass by .. i try to be cheerful.. but i knew.. itz all an act under the protective shell.. i try to hide my feelings .. i was confused.. i refused to put my trust in anione.. evn God.. during svc.. pastor preached a very good msg.. i felt something in my heart.. as though God is talkin to me.. asking me.. wud i give Him a chance again.. to make Him my source.. the presence of God is there.. and i just teared.. although there's alot of time i felt like walking down to the altar to rededicate my life to Him.. i din do that .. but im glad .. i did that yesterday.. really.. Thank God juz being there for me.. i will grow stronger for Him.. thx to my cg for doing such a sweet thing for me.. im really touched.. =D

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at 8:43 AM
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Thursday, April 15

had two tests today.. english mock and ss SEQ... feeling quite apathetic on every subjects i had today.. was daydreaming/sleeping .. laze around whole day.. tml gt chi mock .. gotta reach sch by 6.55 .. yeah.. tml sports day.. we are suppose to start sch at 9 ... but .. haiz..the teachers very ridiculous leh.. we are nt suppose to eat breakfast.. have to go sch leh.. haiz.. sch and their policies.. mite skip sports day.. den again.. hv to catch up with my frenx.. mite not..haha..cg meeting later.. gotta go~

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Tuesday, April 13

i felt a burden has been lifted off me.. suddenly i feel so light hearted.. it has been a really long time since i felt this way .. for 5 years? 6 years? i dunno .. but really.. this wakes me up.. im gonna score for O Lvl.. i wont let my parents down de.. i m gonna do it.. i juz hope that nothing else wud bring me down.. i got a fragile heart ^_^ .. i really Thank God.. indeed He proved Himself to me again and again.. what am i doing? seriously i dunno.. itz the time to start now.. im gonna work hard.. im not gonna let anithing affect me.. i hope

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at 5:21 PM
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Monday, April 12

*wails* ahhhhhhhhhhh... im still up here.. doin hmk.. *pathetic* screw o lvl.. i believe im gonna burn all my books after o lvl.. itz evil =X .. the teachers are slave drivers.. *lack of sleepzzz* still give us so many hmk.. i noe exams are coming.. but do they have to do this .. haiz.. got chinese mock all the way.. i think..im gonna break down.. 3 weeks later mid yr exams le.. im still not prepared.. how? i must get 8 A1s .. so i can get panasonic x66... haha.. and im have the chance to major psychology in uni.. if i got gd results and get into a good sch.. which is my goal.. i noe what i wan in my life since i was pri 5.. abit tooyoung to think so far ehx.. haha.. but i shld juz work towards my goal.. and trust god all along..hmm.. i dun really feel "into" my cg.. i dunno whatz wrong.. but i feel being distanced away from them.. esp since i think im on the different wavelength and frequency from them.. so i guess.. im pretty cold towards them.. wel..itz wrong.. but.. i guess.. i got nothing to say..

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at 11:05 PM
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still pretty 'high' since yesterday.. haha.. aries managed to help me take photo of somebody.. haha.. althu onli side view.. but can le lah.. xie xie jiejie.. i love her so much =X .. haha.. i wan to get panasonic x66.. violet colour de.. im a purple freako..haha..itz small and compact.. and the best of all.. got CAMERA ..meaning everytime i go choir i might take the phone up juz in case.. u noe =) .. haha.. i getting more and more crazy each day.. i nid my daily dosage of calm medicine.. but too bad lah.. that can onli be satisfy every saturday.. so u guyz have to live with my crazy stunts all the time.. till later

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Sunday, April 11

indeed.. even if we are faithless .. He remains Faithful.. for He cant deny Himself.. God is good.. all the time.. His grace is really great.. cg had a breakthru.. was rebuked juz now.. guess itz true.. but ... haiz.. nvm.. i shld be faithful in little things..

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at 10:59 PM
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im onli human..i have emotions and feelings.. i dont nid all these.. but .. i nid God..

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at 9:14 PM
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heyhey.. juz reached hm not long ago .. so tired.. but tml have to wake up early again to go kallang and book seats.. m so drained out.. haha.. was lazin ard in house doing nothing but surfing ard until itz time to meet li xuan and gang.. reach there early .. and was waiting for them.. in the end.. wait le 1/2 hr den get goin.. after tat .. reached kallang mrt station.. met ginny and wait for bryan.. 1 hr later.. walking to indoor stadium.. when u put me and ginny together.. itz singing disaster.. haha.. we were like singing out loud..but not really loud.. until we reached indoor tt area.. both of us keep shouting " Bryan shi ge da bai chi" onli to earn whacking from the wacko LoLx.. but aniwae.. we reached there *finally* yeah.. sis bao lian told ginny and me to run and book seats.. and we did.. found seats at the front.. den found out dinah's lost her bag.. we din bring in .. so ginny and me ran out again to search for her bag... we were panting when we returned.. *we braved thru the storms and the seas.. mountains and rivers to bring back dinah's bag* .. haha.. abit exaggerating lah.. but u know the city-harvest style.. we will chiong ahhhh to grab seats lor.. so we were really ni shui xing zhou.. going against the water current.. haha.. yeah.. after the whole thing ended.. the drama is great.. ginny and me returned to singing mode.. and itz so embarassing.. thx god itz late and not much people can see our faces.. but really.. once it turns dark.. when im with ginny .. we do crazy stuffs.. well.. thatz what i usually do.. haha.. yeah.. den we started rappin the cheer .. " i sae u sae we sae what. woo ah ah ah.. woo ah ah ah .. woo ah ah ah .. wazzup wazzup .. woo ah ah ah .. " den people ard us were laughing.. but we're like .. dont give a nitch .. haha.. if there's such a phrase .. haha.. aniwae..im tired.. im gonna get up early tml.. ITZ EASTER .. I LOVE JESUS .. blessings to all.. here goes the cranky me =D

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Friday, April 9

heyhey .. watched the passion of the christ juz now.. i really encourage u all to watch it.. cried during the show.. esp when Jesus was being whipped.. he was being whipped at total of 32-37 times.. although in those times.. itz against the law to whip a person more den 30 times.. pretty biased huh.. itz really very touching.. and it totally renewed my faith and my mind.. itz a great show.. itz not all that gory like those critics said.. it showed the real pain and suffering Jesus had gone thru .. itz really great.. so yeah.. im gonna get the vcd when it's out.. so if u wanna watch it.. ask me! i will be so kind to lend u.. yup... till later

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at 4:31 PM
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was so tired yesterday .. so din get to block.. yesterday is cross-country day.. actually supposed to grab breakfast with gab/ning/jaz .. but im a lazy-bone.. i smsed them telling them i got something crop up.. which is .. sleeping.. haha.. but in the end.. i was almost late.. so i took the mrt.. met them at sun plaza.. took the cab to sch together .. the teachers were like making us sit down in the parade square.. with the sun shining on us.. we were complaining..haha.. wat else can we do? den i found out i din do my hmk.. was panicking .. but after tt.. teacher was goin thru in clz.. so i was saved *phew*.. after that .. i went home to shower and grab my gg uni.. haha.. but i was late again *duhx* .. but thank god that they didnt leave without me.. duty was so tiring!!!! the people there were like rowdy and all sort.. they simply dun understand simple instructions.. *im talking about my dear dear juniors* den the teachers stepped in and shouted/scolded them.. wow .. they are great at doing that.. no wonder they are called teachers... aniwae.. there's onli two containers .. so four others including me.. have to carry a jug around and pour water into people's cup.. and we were like running to and fro to get water if we ran out of them.. *exhausted* after the whole thing.. alreadi like 6++ le.. me ning gab and jasmine went to thomson plaza to grab dinner!! the place was like so ..little people.. over the dinner.. i was commenting on gabbie.. cuz i heard she puked blood and was shocked.. then gab retorted back saying her blood look juz like my food.. and i was back rebutting her and laughing.. ning and jasmine cudnt take it.. haha.. den i was as usual.. being the crazy me.. haha... i guess.. the onli time im at my true self is with them.. cuz.. itz really fun.. haha.. but hey.. i do have a quiet side .. haha.. im not all that loud and noisy .. haha.. as if *rolled my eyes* .. yeah.. before i get schizophrenic.. i guess i shld tag off.. cya =)

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Thursday, April 8

hehe juz reached home.. yeah.. came back from church.. bible study is way too cool today.. it's totally inspiring and really enhance my bible knowledge.. itz on the book of isaiah.. which is also known as little bible in the bible .. yup.. itz great..im lookin forward to the other sessions.. but before the break.. i was very tired.. almost dozing off *since when i dint?* my handwriting is so .. slurred? haha.. i cant read it.. den i took my friend notebook and read .. haha.. itz nice.. yup... went cwp with ning , gab and jasmine .. buying prezzie .. they all buying .. not me =X .. aniwae.. we were "trapped" by this girl.. promoting what zodiac club.. and gab and jasmine .. left us.. into the companionship with the wolf.. >.< .. haha.. the girl was like.. cool right cool right? and i was like.. rolling my eyes.. and laughing .. and the whole thing to me .. is so stupid.. cuz she's like.. wud u rather be the trendsetter or the follower.. den i told her.. neither.. LoLx.. she almost look stunned by my sudden reject .. LoLx ... but itz zodiac.. which is .. not of God's realm bahz.. itz evil =X .. oh yeah.. saw "him" today .. haha.. lifted my mood up .. haha..

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at 12:20 AM
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Tuesday, April 6

smtimes i do think.. im a tad boy crazy.. haha.. and really it is..

[ made a wish* ]
at 10:27 PM
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haha
slept for 12 hrs yesterday
i think someone called me
i din remember what i've said
so im racking my brains now
nothing come to my mind
so i decided to forget that
LoLx
sch was alright today.. sci tutorial ended at 3.15 woohoo~ actually goin to bs today.. but since sis bao lian msg us asking those who can go on wed.. so im goin on wed.. since tml no file check and im praying huang wun ask me to stay back.. eating and watching this soppy ch u drama now.. *gt no choice.. dad's watching it* .. was quite stress-free this few days.. i decided not to care about anithing.. well.. not anithing lah.. juz things tat is making me so frustrated lor.. after im sure i can handle it.. i will approach it.. but now.. i rather focuz on easter .. yeah.. im hopin to have friends.. but then.. the timing like very dot dot .. cuz either too early or too late.. my friends all so lazy de .. im trying bahz.. this week .. relaxing.. cuz thurs is x-country.. im doing duty lor.. fri is good fri... den next week.. mon - wed.. nafa test.. den fri again is sports day.. cool huh *winkz* .. so really relaxing.. before mid yr comes..yup yup.. till later~

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Monday, April 5

haha.. juz came back from macs.. was there with gab and jaz.. studying .. surprise?? haha.. actually did some work .. shld do tt more often.. yeah.. we were like keep on commenting on the cashiers.. cuz they were like keep staring at us and started some conversation of riverside people.. and we were "offended" .. did lots of crazy stuffs.. yeah.. we took photos using jaz's phone too.. haha.. we might give others the impression that we are not so right up there.. haha.. sch was alright today.. for the 1st time this year.. i dun feel so stressed up .. yeah.. got back my 2nd mock exam.. got 55/80 again.. wasnt that upset.. haha... maybe i let go of my feelings le.. feeling better.. prayed yesterday .. hehe.. i will KOKO .. PUSH .. and i will have f.a.i.t.h .. yeah.. i nid that .. hehe.. ttz all bahzz

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so many homework .. so little time .. guess wat? im still doin my chinese project .. yup .. itz like midnight.. i still haven finish.. decided to take a break.. so here i am =) .. yeah .. itz time to tidy up my room.. it looks like crap.. kill all the mood i have to do my homework.. so i was out at the livin room .. yeah.. im still sick >.< .. cudnt wait for easter.. itz gonna be great.. yeah.. update more later

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Sunday, April 4

svc was great yesterday.. the preaching of the word is so so so powerful.. went for both service 2 and 3.. hehe... the praise and worship is great man.. hahahahaha... but i was very hungry throughout the whole svc.. haha.. cuz for two consecutive day.. i onli eat the bagel.. that all *faintz* but i got the Life of God .. im still energetic.. yeah.. sis bao lian called me juz now.. maybe i shld try again.. even if my understanding fails me.. i must still trust god.. still press in to him .. yeah..im gonna start today .. i cant afford to let my spirit man to be so lethargic.. it feels weird >.< yup .. oh yeah.. yesterday celebrated sis bao lian and aries da jie de bday.. the cake was so nicely decorated... with tweety bird !!!! =X i really like tweety mah... haha.. den me and aries beri hungry.. but shops all closed le.. so we ate the cake... LOLX.. im a glutton.. forgive me LoLx... The PaSsIoN Of ChRiSt is A gReAt MoViE!!!!! must watch okie? haha... even if u are under 18 .. u can still find ways to watch it.. like buy the vcd.. etc etc.. do wateva u can to watch this very impacting and accurately portrayed Jesus in His last 12 hrs..

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Saturday, April 3

okie .. im definately goin thru some phrase of life .. im turning into a schizophrenia.. not like im not usually .. but really.. sometimes i feel really carefree and happy .. sometimes im depressed and moody .. whatz happenin to me? i guess i dun know..and why am i still not sleeping? i guess .. i dunno too.. was talking to my kor .. in the process.. getting leng-ed by him.. so dun wonder why sometimes i can be so lame.. it run in the bloodlines .. yeah.. so ..i guess .. i m a really bad friend? cuz.. at times when i promise people iwill be there for them.. i dun really do it till the end.. when i give up on them.. when i lost hope.. when my energy is being drained out .. i juz let go.. so it seems.. im not a good friend.. haiz..

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muahahahahahahahahahahahaha... gues wat peeps? my bro is posted to combat medic ... hahahaha.. if u ever watched the band of brothers.. u will know.. the soldiers will shout : "MEDIC MEDIC" .. imagine my bro *those who have seen him before* carrying all the stupid stuff in the big haversack .. came running.. "Yes? yes?" nt long after ... from another direction it came "MEDIC MEDIC" he ran there .. *LoLx* itz funni though .. he's not trained in ani first aid .. so if he's the first one get hurt .. i will be laughing my ass off .. *evil smirk* okok.. im not tat bad lah.. wahahahahaha

okie.. about sch yesterday lol... itz alright lah.. except the part when mrs singh , my sch vp , came in to my clz and asked for me .. the whole clz was like *shocked/amazed/astonished* .. cuz im a good girl and they basically wun think that vp will call for me =D .. well.. itz okie lah.. call call lor.. details wun give.. wan to ask .. ask me ^_^ .. today chi mock exam .. itz bad.. the first mock i got 55/80 .. haiz.. kana called to stay back by my cheena teacher .. *sian diaoz* den today leh.. the ciyu .. i got 3 words wrong .. o.0 .. 6 marks gone.. zao ju ... 1 wrong.. 3 marks gone.. now alreadi minus 9 marks.. which mean the probability of me getting an 71/80 is 0 .. LoLx *lame* .. ning din come today .. she was down with fever.. hmm.. alot of homework .. the teachers are slave-drivers ... o lvl chi is coming in 2 mths.. next mth is mid ye le .. oh yeah .. im posting my mid yr schedule..

30.04 - English paper 1 & 2
05.05 - social studies and amath paper 1
6.05 - emath 2 and poa paper 2
7.05 - history and pure phy 2
8.05 - chinese paper 1
10.05 - pure chem 2
11.05 - emath 1
12.05 - poa 1
13.05 - pe test *i believe we are the onli sch in wdls to have a pe test* n
pure chem 1
14.05 - pure phy 1

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basically .. after mid yr exams.. 17 days after will be my o lvl chinese .. so basically .. I GOT NO TIME TO PLAY .. muahhahaha.. i shld get my butt off here and stop procrastinating...*gone*

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Friday, April 2

haiz.. what am i doin here early in the morning? becuz im not done with my hmk yet >.< .. tht i was having a quick nap until i woke up today o.0 .. today chi mock exam again.. chi cher is like against me or wat? i know my result wasnt up to her expectation of me.. but .. im a human too.. she's stressing me until i hate chinese ^_^ which might not be a bad thing.. haha.. chi o coming.. haiz.. hope i can get A1? damn.. i hate my life.. i wish i cud juz disappear from this world.. im nothing but a burden right? im nothing but an useless asshole.. fine.. i shld juz die and everyone can be happy .. so why not?

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Thursday, April 1

okie..im more calm now.. but still stressed up .. i think a little thing will set me off into the blasting mode..but i juz wanna tell her.. we really love her as a fren.. we really care for her.. we are really hurt by her actions.. she can alwayz talk to us.. why must she alwayz resort to cutting herself? it wun solve ani problem.. isnt she the one who brought us out of the darkness that was once upon our life? why did she seep into this darkness after so long? we are alwayz there for her.. all she do is to call us.. whenever she's in nid of us.. haiz.. care.. what is it? itz an affection we have for our friends.. every little things they do .. we care.. so why inflict wounds on urself? haizz

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i am absolutely sick of this world.. this pathetic world.. or rather.. im pathetic.. the teachers are such delusional fools.. they actually think that we can score in o lvl? we mite .. if they do not give us so many stress .. so damn them.. i absolutely do not care aniwae.. lookin back to the past .. i was such an idiot to take sch seriously .. n now? i give up .. i had enuff.. i stop trying.. there wont be ani results rite? everyone ard my lvl is cutting themselves.. even the boys .. itz sort of funny .. im a sadist .. pardon me.. i had enuff of these people too.. i had enuff trying to talk them out of it and they still doing it ? so it proves that im an idiot? believing that by talking to these people .. they will really listen and get it into their head... haha... as if.. i dun give a damn aniwae.. they can cut all they like.. if they wanna cut .. make sure they cut it rite.. *yeah im bad* .. i m really fed up.. damn sch.. damn teachers.. damn me

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