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Wednesday, March 31

haiz.. juz reached home not long ago.. was at sch doing all the chi comphre corrections.. now i got the feeling that my hand had gone wasted .. haiz.. shld be at orchard.. but so sad.. cant go.. cuz of chiense.. my ez-link was confiscated .. haiz.. itz time that i stop PROCRASTINATING and start working hard .. *poof* off to my geeky world

[ made a wish* ]
at 8:06 PM
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Tuesday, March 30

smtimes .. i really wan to be the good student.. the straight - As student.. but itz hard.. esp since i din put in effort in my sec 3 life.. so why bother now? im suffering .. itz really hard.. no one understands.. im struggling.. itz really hard.. i try to be optimistic.. i really tried...

[ made a wish* ]
at 9:46 PM
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haiZzz.. feeling so stressed up .. got back my chi mock exams.. which is last yr june paper.. i got 55/80 for that paper.. was really demoralize when i saw the marks.. i mean.. itz so lousy .. how can i score A1 got chinese in O lvl.. somemore today i did the amath test ..probably score 1/25 again .. tml accounts test.. gone case too? how cud i allow myself to procrastinate? how cud i allow my spirit man to be so lerthagic? im hopeless

[ made a wish* ]
at 6:32 PM
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Monday, March 29

haha.. my bro is like downstairs 2 hrs ago .. my mum's worried .. and there's two girls who called him .. im like telling my mum.. aiyah.. korkor de girlfriends lah.. den i start my laughter.. those who stick ard with me long enuff know what i mean ^.^ .. aniwae... she's givin the excuse of goin downstairs to open the letter box.. but i believe .. she's tryin to see who's my brother is with .. cuz.. he turn off his hp .. LoLx.. i awaits for the drama thatz about to unfolds later .. LoLx

[ made a wish* ]
at 9:23 PM
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i really hate cockroaches.. the sight of them irks me.. really i do..

[ made a wish* ]
at 9:04 PM
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so hmm.. what exactly is love? what exactly is true love? kids nowsdays.. are so into love.. but do they really know the meaning of love..

Definition
love (LIKE SOMEONE) [Show phonetics]
verb [T]
to have strong feelings of affection for another adult and be romantically and sexually attracted to them, or to feel great affection for a friend or person in your family:

so thatz the meaning ..well.. letz look into biblical defination..
to love people is to decide to benefit others at the expense of yourself..

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*okie.. totally irrelevent*

so back to the topic "love" as view by many teenagers.. i have seen many of my friends fall in and out of love.. itz seems that they are constantly seeking for this love that is provided by man.. but cant they see beyond that? there's someone greater that love them.. He love us so much that he gave us His only Son to die for our sins.. so why get so touchy in secular love? God loves them.. and God nvr fails.. rather in relationship with man.. it do fails.. man are not perfect.. this is a fallen world.. they shld seek comfort in their Creator.. im not saying that it bad to fall in love with human or whatsoever.. but im juz saying.. there is something greater than all these.. that is God's love..although we tend to seek love from man.. thatz sort of normal.. but i trying to bring a point that.. even though it fails.. do not be so upset that u wanna commit suicide or cut urself.. itz totally foolish.. but rather focuz in God .. if God can take care of the birds.. wudnt he take care of u? why dont juz trust him.. let go of ur so called love life.. God can give u someone better.. itz juz didnt work out.. u dun have to resort to killing urself.. or inflicting wounds on ur body .. it juz doesnt work out.. if God can give Adam Eve .. wudnt he give u Ur EvE?? i know.. sometimes.. u see couples walking ard.. looking so blissfully in love.. juz wait.. ur time will come.. why rush .. when u know good things are hard to get .. u have to wait .. whereas .. if u think this is a relationship that u wanan put in the commitments. u can try.. but .. must learn to na de qi fang de xia..

[ made a wish* ]
at 4:40 PM
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hey peeps... im back... hehe .. well .. u can see i put up a lot of songs in my blog.. so everytime u visit here.. itz a different song ^.^ aniwae .. watched the evelyn tan and darren lim wedding stuff yesterday.. haha.. the whole thing is very sweet.. and of cuz.. i alwayz like evelyn tan .. she so so so cute and nice .. she looks sweet too.. and their love is like.. perfect .. haha.. itz everything a girl cud wish for lor.. haha.. aniwae.. sch was ok.. except gotta finish some hols hmk *yup .. i haven complete* hehe.. so yeah.. tata smilez =D

[ made a wish* ]
at 3:17 PM
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Sunday, March 28

took the link from dinah's blog..

the meaning of my name -

Helen.-Greek. "light." Other forms are Aileen, Eileen, Elaine, Eleanor, Ellen, Helena, Lena, Leonora. Elegant, gentle, cultured. Not necessarily beautiful but always captivating. Sentimental at times.

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The Lion Leo
July 23 to August 22
Traditional Leo Traits
Generous and warmhearted
Creative and enthusiastic
Broad-minded and expansive
Faithful and loving Pompous and patronizing
Bossy and interfering
Dogmatic and intolerant
The Leo type is the most dominant, spontaneously creative and extrovert of all the zodiacal characters. In grandeur of manner, splendor of bearing and magnanimity of personality, they are the monarch's among humans as the lion is king of beasts. They are ambitious, courageous, dominant, strong willed, positive, independent, self-confident there is no word as doubt in their vocabularies and self-controlled. Born leaders, either in support of or in revolt against the status quo, they are at their most effective when in a position of command, their personal magnetism and courtesy of mind bringing out the best of loyalty from subordinates. As they are uncomplicated, knowing exactly what they want and using all their energies, creativeness and resolution to get it, as well as being certain that they will, their followers know where they are with Leonians.

Leonians think and act bigger than would normally be dared; although the ambitiousness of their schemes and idealism may sometimes daunt their followers, their practical hardheadedness and ability to go straight to the heart of any problem reassures them. If Leonians meet with setbacks they thrive on the adversity.On the whole they are powers for good, for they are strongly idealistic, humane and beneficent. They have powerful intelligence and are of a broad, philosophical, sometimes religious, turn of mind.

Those who are devout may become very obstinate in upholding traditional beliefs and will cling tenaciously, but with complete sincerity, to practices and doctrines which liberal thinkers regard as absurdly out-of-date.Their faults can be as large in scale as their virtues, and an excessively negative Leonian can be one of the most unpleasant human beings imaginable, displaying extreme arrogance, autocratic pride, haughtiness and excessive hastiness of temper. If jealously suspicious of rivals, they will not hesitate to use cunning, lies and trickery to discredit them.

Self-centerdness, greed for flattery, boastfulness and bombast, pomposity, snobbish superiority, and overbearing and intolerant disdain of underlings - to whom they will nevertheless delegate the carrying out of minor details in their grandiose schemes, and from whom they are not above borrowing immoderately if an occasion necessitates it - any of these can be characteristic of Leo. Add to them a passion for luxury, a lust for power, unlimited sexual lust and emotional indulgence, and a character emerges that no one would want to know either in public life or private. But their pride may go before a fall as uncontrolled impetuosity is likely to bring them low. Fortunately it is rare that a Leo is so undisciplined as to give way thoroughly to this list of vices, and their tendencies to them are usually balanced by an innate wisdom.

In professional life they do well at any vocation at which there is room at the top. As politicians they are content with nothing less than a powerful position in government. In business they may be the chairman of their company's board, or at least directors or managers. They are excellent organizers and overseers, and if from the artisan ranks of society they will aspire to become the boss, partly because they are ambitious by nature, partly because they dislike manual labour, preferring to take charge of others doing it. If artistic, Leos can become stars of stage or screen (their bent is serious rather than light drama), maestros as musicians when they will gravitate toward the grand instruments or activities, such as the organ or conducting of orchestras and as painters; anything grand in conception and scale appeals to them.

Leo women make exceptionally good welfare workers.In his or her relations with others the Leo type is open, sincere, genuine and trusting. Outgoing, spontaneously warm hearted and plain spoken, though never lacking in kindliness, Leos are more disillusioned than the average if let down by those they trust. They are not good judges of character and are inclined to favoritism and an exaggerated faith in their followers which too often ends in disappointment.

They have a strong sex drive and are so attracted to the opposite sex that they find it hard to be constant; they can be so intensely sexual as to become dissolute. They may have numerous love affairs for their love of pleasure and beauty is liable to drive them from one attractive partner to another. They are very much inclined to deceive. Their marriages may fail for the same reason, yet they are sincere and generous to their lovers while love lasts, and will remain attached to their homes so long as it is run for their benefit. They demand service but are incapable of giving it.

Physiologically, Leo governs the upper back, forearms, wrist, spine and heart. Its natives are subject to a number of ailments: pain in the back and lungs, spinal complaints, diseases of the heart and blood, sickness in ribs and sides, convulsions, pleasantries, violent burning fevers including, in former days when they were prevalent, plague and pestilence jaundice and some afflictions of the eyes.
Some Famous Leos:
Napoleon Bonaparte (August 15, 1769)
George Bernard Shaw (July 26, 1856)
Mae West (August 17, 1893)

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[ made a wish* ]
at 12:44 PM
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hey peeps.. check this out http://www.passionup.com/fun/fun4414.htm..

i score 80 pts.. and the result is..

You're dominated by the left brain, which makes you the scientist. The degree in which you're dominated by the scientific brain depends on your score. The lower your score is, the more dominate this side of the brain is.
In general, however, you're better at numbers and objective data than with spelling or creative endeavors. And instead of seeing the big picture, you see things in their component parts down to the intricate details.

Because you're great at analyzing situations and solving problems, especially in terms of numbers or data, you'd be best in a career involving, mathematics, business, natural science, engineering, etc.

The abilities you possess to calculate, conceive and plan has been instrumental in humanity's survival.

--
thephilosophers.co.uk

Analysis

Your Moral Parsimony Score is 100%

What does this mean?

Moral frameworks can be more or less parsimonious. That is to say, they can employ a wide range of principles, which vary in their application according to circumstances (less parsimonious) or they can employ a small range of principles which apply across a wide range of circumstances without modification (more parsimonious). An example might make this clear. Let's assume that we are committed to the principle that it is a good to reduce suffering. The test of moral parsimony is to see whether this principle is applied simply and without modification or qualification in a number of different circumstances. Supposing, for example, we find that in otherwise identical circumstances, the principle is applied differently if the suffering person is from a different country to our own. This suggests a lack of moral parsimony because a factor which could be taken to be morally irrelevant in an alternative moral framework is here taken to be morally relevant.

How to interpret your score

The higher your percentage score the more parsimonious your moral framework. In other words, a high score is suggestive of a moral framework that comprises a minimal number of moral principles that apply across a range of circumstances and acts. What is a high score? As a rule of thumb, any score above 75% should be considered indicative of a parsimonious moral framework. However, perhaps a better way to think about this is to see how your score compares to other people's scores.

In fact, your score of 100% is significantly higher than the average score of 66%. This suggests that you have utilised a noticeably smaller range of moral principles than average in order to make judgements about the scenarios presented in this test, and that you have tended to judge aspects of the acts and circumstances depicted here to be morally irrelevant that other people consider to be morally relevant.

Moral Parsimony - good or bad?

We make no judgement about whether moral parsimony is a good or bad thing. Some people will think that on balance it is a good thing and that we should strive to minimise the number of moral principles that form our moral frameworks. Others will suspect that moral parsimony is likely to render moral frameworks simplistic and that an overly parsimonious moral framework will leave us unable to deal with the complexity of real circumstances and acts. We'll leave it up to you to decide who is right.

How was your score calculated?

Your score was calculated by combining and averaging your scores in the four categories that appear below.

Geographical Distance

This category has to do with the impact of geographical distance on the application of moral principles. The idea here is to determine whether moral principles are applied equally when dealing with sets of circumstances and acts that differ only in their geographical location in relation to the person making the judgement.

Your score of 100% is significantly higher than the average score of 72% in this category.

The suggestion then is that geographical distance plays little, if any, role in your moral thinking.

Family Relatedness

In this category, we look at the impact of family loyalty and ties on the way in which moral principles are applied. The idea here is to determine whether moral principles are applied without modification or qualification when you're dealing with sets of circumstances and acts that differ only in whether the participants are related through family ties to the person making the judgement.

Your score of 100% is a lot higher than the average score of 57% in this category.

It looks as if issues of family relatedness play have no significant role to play in your thinking about moral issues.

Acts and Omissions

This category has to do with whether there is a difference between the moral status of acting and omitting to act where the consequences are the same in both instances. Consider the following example. Let's assume that on the whole it is a bad thing if a person is poisoned whilst drinking a cola drink. One might then ask whether there is a moral difference between poisoning the coke, on the one hand (an act), and failing to prevent a person from drinking a coke someone else has poisoned, when in a position to do so, on the other (an omission). In this category then, the idea is to determine if moral principles are applied equally when you're dealing with sets of circumstances that differ only in whether the participants have acted or omitted to act.

Your score of 100% is much higher than the average score of 59% in this category.

It seems that you do not think that the distinction between acting and omitting to act has any real moral significance.

Scale

This category has to do with whether scale is a factor in making moral judgements. A simple example will make this clear. Consider a situation where it is possible to save ten lives by sacrificing one life. Is there a moral difference between this choice and one where the numbers of lives involved are different but proportional - for example, saving 100 lives by sacrificing ten? In this category then, the idea is to determine whether moral principles are applied without modification or qualification when you're dealing with sets of circumstances that differ only in their scale, as in the sense described above.

Your score of 100% is significantly higher than the average score of 75% in this category.

It seems that scale, as it is described above, is not an important consideration in your moral worldview. But if, contrary to our findings, it is important, then it decreases the parsimoniousness of your moral framework.

India and Australia

In Question 13 you were asked the following: You see an advertisement from a charity in a newspaper about a person in severe need in Australia. You can help this person at little cost to yourself. Are you morally obliged to do so?

However, fifty percent of people undertaking this activity are asked a slightly different question, where the country India is substituted for the country Australia. The idea is to determine what kind of impact "culural distance" has on the moral judgements that people make. The important point here is that the vast majority of people who visit this web site are from the United States, Canada and the United Kingdom. Consequently, in a comparison of the lives and lifestyles of TPM Online visitors, residents of India and residents of Australia, there will be bigger cultural differences between TPM Online visitors and residents of India than between TPM Online visitors and residents of Australia. Of course, whether a perception of cultural differences will enter into moral judgements, and if so, what its impact will be is entirely a matter of conjecture at this point. Indeed, whatever results we find here, they will only ever be suggestive of further avenues of enquiry. This aspect of the activity is simply not rigorous enough that it will be possible to draw definitive conclusions. It will nevertheless be interesting!

The Results

23% of respondents who were asked about a person in severe need in Australia responded that they were stongly obliged to help compared to 22% who responded this way when asked about a person in severe need in India.
42% of respondents who were asked about a person in severe need in Australia responded that they were weakly obliged to help. This is exactly the same as the percentage who responded this way when asked about a person living in India.
35% of respondents who were asked about a person in severe need in Australia responded that they were not obliged to help compared to 36% who responded this way when asked about a person in severe need in India.

[ made a wish* ]
at 12:04 PM
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human reactions is one funni thing.. i like to explore the way people think and how it leads to their actions. i guess thatz the reason why im interested in psychology.. i like the way how i freak some of my friends out by saying out watz on their mind n telling them what their next action gonna be .. to them .. itz kinda like a deja vuu.. but to it .. itz a whole lot of fun .. itz very exciting .. juz like taking a roller coaster ride.. u piece their thinking in ur mind.. and u analyse .. and u noe .. whatz their next action gonna be.. this is my cup of tea.. i alwayz know since young.. im cut out to be a psychologist.. *nope .. im not bragging* i got enuff evidence to prove this .. *winkz* .. but smtimes.. i like to act stupid.. juz to provide some entertainment for my friends... but itz a sad case when they think Im really stupid.. so i guess.. it leads to their way of thinking... not that im saying anithing bad... but itz juz *smilez*

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at 11:35 AM
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Saturday, March 27

hey hey... juz returned from church.. pst kong preached a very powerful msg .. MAxiMisEd PotEnTial.. indeed everyone of us has a hidden ability .. a latent power that has yet been exposed .. yeah .. he told us a very funny msg ... he told us of one experience.. whr he's in europe .. he was driving the car thingie.. wah .. itz was so funni lor.. u have to be there .. to enjoy .. aniwae.. today BrO MaRk singing leh!! .. wah... he so talented lah.. someone i look up to sia.. well... juz until here

[ made a wish* ]
at 11:26 PM
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im bored.. so here's something..

List five things you'd like to accomplish by the end of the year.
5.gettin 8A1s for O lvls and show it to my parents..
4. complete victorious living and get the christian foundation cert
3.grow taller
2.buy samsung p400
1. own a brand new comp

List five people you've lost contact with that you'd like to hear from again.
5. ...
4. ...
3. ....
2. ....
1. ...

List five things you'd like to learn how to do.
5. play guitar well
4. at the moment.. nth else

List five things you'd do if you won the lottery (no limit).
give the money to church.. charity.. family .. and stuff i wanna get

List five things you do that help you relax.
5.lavender
4.kevin kern's pieces
3.sleep
2.designing my web layout
1. taking a walk.. alone.. at ... somewhere

[ made a wish* ]
at 12:37 PM
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Friday, March 26

ahh.. gift from heaven.. find this cool host splot.net.. offering a very very low prize for a domain!!! hiak hiak .. im gonna get it .. sooner or later.. i simply loving making websites.. wahahhaha.. hmmm.. watz shld the url be? i really like a .net instead of a .com.. u guyz got ani suggestion.. taggy pls? ^.^

[ made a wish* ]
at 6:08 PM
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Thursday, March 25

haiz.. mummy is talking to me about ah ma again.. she's crying.. i dunno what to do leh.. i try to console her.. ah ma gone to heaven le.. go accompany ah gong lor.. but den .. she continue saying.. she can live longer de .. hai... itz too sudden le.. ah ma din expect tt she wud die lor.. she still sae she wanna visit me..haiz.. still wanna go china ... but she cudnt make it.. haiz... what can i sae neh? i miss her too.. but.. wat can i do?

[ made a wish* ]
at 11:01 PM
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hmm.. today .. english teacher nvr come.. chinese teacher nvr come .. *phew~* -wipe away perspiration- .. cuz me haven complete mi hmk yet.. lolx.. lazy lah... aniwae... watched the eye 2 that time .. on tuesday.. with aries.. haha.. both of us din go sch.. LoLx.. i have a valid reason.. but .. aries.. well.. she... she... *shakes heaD* .. aniwae.. itz pretty fun watching horror movie with her.. she was so scared.. LoLx.. i was like.. prompting her.. ghost coming le .. coming le.. den she whacked me -.-'' .. yeah.. actually.. nothing much to talk about leh.. hmmm.. me goin cgm liao le.. tata

[ made a wish* ]
at 6:07 PM
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Wednesday, March 24

blehx.. juz reach home not long ago -.-|| .. cuz i alot of days nvr go sch den have to make up all the works..thx God itz not alot.. juz stay back finish all the comprehensions.. FOUR LEHX.... haiz.. nvm.. this whole week.. must finish my ciyu tests.. really regret not studying for it.. now i owe her 8 tests.. *faintx*.. nvm.. i will trust God.. chinese shldnt be a problem.. yeah.. i got back my report book.. here's the results...CAUTION: Those with weak heart , do not proceed any further *lamezzz*..

Term 1 CA Results
English Language : 56 - C5
Chinese : 75 - A1
Add Math : 3.3 - F9 *ponders*
Emath : 53.8 - C6
Chem : 65 - B3
Physics : 58 - C5
Combined Humans (S,H) : 60 - C5
Principles of Accounts : 56 - C5

L1R5 - 25
L1R4 - 20

haiz.. with this results.. where can i go? nvm.. still there's improvement from last year.. and i believe by God's grace im able to go from glory to glory ..

[ made a wish* ]
at 7:14 PM
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Tuesday, March 23

-----------------GENERAL INFO--------------------

~ Todae's dAte: 23/03/2004
~ What's The Time Now?: 12.24pm *yeah i din go sch*
~ Nickname(s): yingx.. baby girl ..
~ Birthday: 27/07/1988 .. spiritual bday -> 23/03/2003
~ Nationality: singaporean
~ Horoscope: leo
~ Occupation: Student.
~ Eye Colour: dark brown
~ Hair Colour: black
~ Height: 152
~ Shoe Size: 4 ~ 5
~ Tattoos: dun have..
~ Piercings: ears..
~ Family Member(s): ... mummy , daddy , kor
~ Your Bed Time?: anitime

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------

* Cursed/Hated Someone? yeah..
* Taken Revenge On Someone?: nvr have i feel so defeated..

* Really Liked Anyone Of The Opposite Sex?: yeah
* Ever Had A Dream About Your Crush?: im not that on the craze..i rather dream of people i love..like my ah ma.. jesus .. my mummy ..
* Kissed Someone?: mummy
* Been On Stage?: yeah..

* Been On TV?: ...
* Cut/Dyed Your Own Hair?: ...
* Met A Celebrity?: have.
* Dumped Or Been Dumped?: nahz
* Changed Who You Were To Fit In?: why shld i ? take it or leave it
* Thought You Were Attractive : i think im cute n adorable

------------------FAVOURITES---------------------

* Shampoo: Palmolive
* Soap: palmolive aromatherapy lavender
* Fragrance: ocean mist , white floral , lavender
* Clothing Brand: nt really
* Hobbies: building websites , reading , reminiscening.
* Colour: lavender , violet , pastel colours
* Advertisement(s): ...
* food: mum and ah ma's cookin.. haiz...
* Fruit(s): do i care?
* Drink(S): green tea , lemon tea , glass jelly

* Animal(s): puppies
* Flower(s): baby's breaths , lavender
* Season(s): winter
* Cartoon(s): i dun really care

* Number(s): 27 * love it so much .. cuz ah ma also borned on the 27th*
* Sound(s): ah ma's voice lor
* Sport(s): do i care?
* Movie(s): i want to watch the PASSION of the CHRIST!!
* Song(s): too many to be listed
* Musical Artistes: look above
* Musical Instrument: i dun really care
* Body Part: eyes
* Celebrities: i dun really care now
* Candies: i really dun care
* Computer Game(s): still dun care
* Board Game(s): dun care
* Ice-Cream Flavour: Peppermint choc...
* School Subject(s): every sub.. to love den got interest
* Country: california
* Phrases/Words: haiz..

* People To Talk To Online: myself

-----------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------

* Girl Friend(s)?: so many? how to name
* Boy Friend(s)?: look above
* Who's the Funniest?: korkor
* Who's the Weirdest?: everyone
* Who's the Quietest?: me
* Who Do You Trust With Your Life?: God lor.. he created me
* Who Do You Go To For Advice?: bible n myself

*who do You Cry To?: Jesus n myself
* When Did You Cry The Most?: oh .. u mean now?
* Who's Your Role Model?: i dun erally care
* Best Feeling In Your Life?: preach jesus to my relatives and lead them to eternal salvation.. so i can see them in heaven
* Worst Feeling In Your Life: the opposite of above
* What's The Period In Your Life You Miss The Most?: the times when my ah ma and ah gong still ard..
* What's The Most Touching Thing Anyone Ever Said To You?: Everyone ard me cares , dotes and loves me so much .. but i nvr know
* What's The Most Riduculous Thing Anyone Ever Said To You?: im all alone in this world...
* What's Your Philosophy In Life?: chances that comes upon u .. grab it before u lose it
* Are You Satisfied With Your Life?: how can i be satisfied when i nvr get the chance to bring my ah ma to church?

* What's The Time Now?: 12.38pm

- listening to all the sad songs u can ever find on earth*

[ made a wish* ]
at 12:22 PM
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okie.. i think this gonna be a pretty long post ..sorry for the lack of updates.. im in msia this few days .. to attend my grandma's funeral..

Day 1:
Set off in the morning .. 5 plus .. feeling pretty disorientated .. reach johor at around 6 plus .. acc daddy go makan .. den went back to custom wait for great grand auntie .. den together go and sit the travel bus to perak.. *very far leh* .. the bus move so slow de.. i walk also walk faster den the bus lor.. a mixture of emotions overcame me .. was pretty confused.. was thinkin whether shld i join in the ritual? cuz i think itz a buddhism ritual.. but im a christian .. haiz.. den stop thinkin .. went to slp .. reach ah ma house at 8pm... see the coffin .. feel like crying.. cuz coffin closed le.. cannot see face >.< .. hugged mummy .. and she asked me to join the ritual.. dunno how to reject .. respect ah ma.. so join in lor.. saw my two baby cousins *i din even noe they existed until then??* so cute!!! one is 4 yrs old.. one is 17 mths old.. LoLx...

Day 2:
woke up .. played with my cousins... do hmk ..^.^ *good girl rite* .. burnin incense paper for ah ma...*instructed by mummy .. wat to do?* but hor.. they doing the ritual .. i praying to Jesus .. LoLx.. abit dot dot.. but nvm lah .. as long Ah ma go heaven .. good enuff le.. so i can see her mah.. was up talking with my older cousins until the next day .. *looking like a panda* .. remembering the old times spent there.. itz has been 7 years since i last went back.. memories flooded my mind.. i still rem pri 3 that time.. early in the morning wake up go find ah ma.. ah ma bring me go buy noodle.. ah ma saw her friend.. they sit down and talk..i went back myself .. with the noodles... dunno from whr 1 BIG dog came towards me.. of cuz when im young .. i see such big animal of cuz run lah.. i run .. the dog chase .. i shout and scream until the whole street de people woke up ... 5am in the morning leh.. my voice quite loud de lor >.< .. i scream.. den ah ma saved me..lolx.. she chase the stupid dog away.. haiz.. now leh.. if got dog chase me.. no one save me le.. i save myself =X
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all i can bring back is the memories.. *and photos ^.^* well.. i believe i will see her in heaven .. the memories mite fade as time goes by .. but her place in my heart will not change ..

[ made a wish* ]
at 9:44 AM
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Thursday, March 18

on the way to cg today .. i received a call from daddy .. grandma passed away .. i was so sad.. that i started crying .. in front of everyone .. flashes of memories with her came into my mind .. the prayer i've been praying .. is not answered.. i ask God why .. why did He do this? why he dun give me the last chance to preach jesus to grandma .. thatz when i realised .. grab the chance while u have it .. i nvr grab it tightly .. i let it slip out of my hands.. im so guilty .. i regretted so much .. but i cant change anithing .. i was devastated .. i kept quiet all along until cg meeting start .. i lift my burdens unto God .. let God heal me.. take away the hurt .. take away the pain .. thatz when i begun to open up .. healing begins.. i wan to see Grandma in heaven.. do i have the chance? Vincent told me .. i cud raise up the dead and preach JEsus to her .. i think .. ITZ POSSIBLE.. i got the holy spirit .. but .. do i have enuff faith? true repentance come true faith ... im gonna believe God for a miracle .. at least .. i will do my best and let God do the rest .. i will have no regrets.. i will alwayz kept a place for grandma in my heart .. alwayz.. i will nvr forget her

[ made a wish* ]
at 9:53 PM
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screwed my ie >.< .. i had enuff of having to restart my comp juz to get my ie to work for 5 mins or so ? itz time i crash my comp again^^ .. well .. aniwae.. was out this few days.. cuz of sch .. *duh* .. and everytime i see kids with heelys or whatever itz called ..skating here and there... itz not like i have something against them .. i have something against their shoes.. itz must be the most stupid and useless invention in this world.. i mean ... it really seem stupid skating ard with those shoes.. and not considering the consequences if the kids were to knock onto someone else.. so slide down a slope and fall .. haiz..

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at 2:46 PM
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finally .. finished editing the font colours of this blog skin .. actually wanna make my own .. but due to my laziness and shortage of time.. i decided to choose this really cute skin .. i love puppies ^.^ .. aniwae... was pretty pissed off yesterday .. but after some cooling down .. im quite alright.. yeah.. hmm.. still wondering what songs to put for this blog .. 72 more days to my first O lvl paper .. haiz.. what am i suppose to do ? i m still procrastinating .. haiz.. leopard nvr change its spot =X .. well.. haiz...

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at 12:52 PM
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